Co(a)n fusion!!??

One true thing about most of us is we are all confused in life. Most of us would not know where are we heading towards in life, what is that we would want to achieve in life. I am also one of those victim, who is thoroughly confused, not knowing clearly, what is that I want to do in life!

Nowadays life is full of multiple options! and also it is fast zamana. May be because of that, I don’t know. But really our mind is like monkey only. What do we think of becoming one moment, would change to something else in next moment. Same is the case with me as well. One day, I would think of becoming lyricists/writer, so all my energy should go into that. For some days, would give time on the same. Will keep writing songs and articles. Would read lot of books on Kannada literature to improve my language. Would attend weekend book releases, would read articles on improving writing. Would work towards publication of my next book. Would be dreaming of next book release for some days.  Also would be dreaming of music album release with all my songs in it.

Then suddenly one day, if someone becomes sick, would be triggered to become healer. I have learnt so many healing techniques, why am I not utilizing those? I should be of some help to society. It will be of great satisfaction, I should do. For some days, I would be working towards that, will attend some workshops or watch related videos and read related stuffs. Would be using different healing techniques to heal family members, friends and myself. Then suddenly, some day some article related to human mind power would trigger me, oh! I have to do R&D on psychic power, this is my favorite subject. I have to show to the world that, we have so much of psychic power in us, with proper techniques and practice anybody can utilize psychic power and make their life beautiful. During that time, would be trying to enhance my abilities towards that, would watch lot of videos and would read a lot on that subject. Would be on different cloud altogether. Would be observing people a lot to understand what might be going on in their mind, how are their thoughts, how it might be affecting themselves and others. How are my thoughts, how am I creating, how am I affecting others. Will be more intuitive for some days, will be creating whatever I want in life through the power of law of attraction.

Then after some days, may be because of some incident, would think of achieving in software industry itself. No its not fair, I have been in this industry for more than a decade, I should goto next level, I have to focus on improving myself as a software professional, I have to enhance my skills. All these days, I have not put proper efforts to improve myself professionally, this is the high time, I should do. Comparing myself with others, I would spend some sleepless nights. Would spend time working towards improving myself. Then when I am getting hold of something, then suddenly,  some problems for which there are no solutions in personal life would through the challenge at me, bringing me down to the deepest possible way. Some days would go in recovery mode, where mix of all above desires in life would keep me going on in life. After some days would be happy that, now I can focus on one thing, this time will plan this and execute. The day I decide on something like that, there starts the crisis at office!! Forget about desires of life, I would not be able to think anything about myself and family! Would get into a kind of situation, we would not be knowing that, we are breathing!

Not sure when will I come out of trap of confused state!!