Saturday 21 May, 2016

Park IT park!!!



Though it was weekend, got up early as usual. As better half was doing some Pooja, I had to take care of my daughter(otherwise I will have nice Pooja :). So could not go for our cricket practice for the office tournament. As bat was with me, thought will go and give. Went to ground along with my daughter, was happy to see all our colleagues practicing hard. Wanted to play for some time, but daughter didn’t allow. So I thought, atleast let me take her to nearest park, to make her happy. When we reached there, so many people were there with kids.  Surprising fact is all the kids had come with their fathers and all of them looked like IT professionals! Looks like all parks in Bengaluru becomes IT parks because of IT fathers!

Nowadays I am trying to make small changes within myself for better life. When I was with my daughter in the park, multiple times I was tempted to use mobile, but I had taken firm decision to be with her giving my 100%. Thanks to one of my mentors, who had told me once that, whenever he has to spend time with family, he will give 100%, he don’t even carry mobile also. Since then it had stuck in my mind. Nowadays I am trying to implement that.

Each and every thing she was enjoying over there. Always she lives in present. We can learn so much from kids, isn't it? Happiness kids have with small gestures of ours is unmatchable. Felt so happy being there properly giving my 100% of attention. We will not know what we are missing, until we get it. In the same place, I could see some fathers, in the name of freedom had left their kids free and were reading news papers,watching mobile & watching exercises done by other fathers! I could see, some kids had to shout so many times “Daddy…Daddy” to get their attention!

I think for most of IT professionals being restless has become a habit! Myself was a victim of this, because of involvement in too many things, I am not able to sit on one thing for longer duration! My mind was not willing to sit for long to write this blog, I had to force myself so much. Luckily for my help internet connection went off for some time. Because of that, I was able to disconnect a little bit and write this!

In this digital world, we are all connected and distance doesn’t matter even a bit. But we are getting disconnected from self & families. We are so much busy in outside connections that we forget inner connection and intra connections with families.

Disconnect to connect better with self  & families…

Can we park IT for some time in park?


@maR

Saturday 7 May, 2016

Can this be controlled?

At the terrace of that beautiful hotel in posh place UB City, all the colleagues were enjoying the party of successful launch of one of our products. It was only me who stood separate without socializing with everyone. To dance on the dance floor, so many people forced and pulled me, but it was of no use. I could not help my body to dance to the tunes, as physically I was there but mentally I was somewhere else. Where which place also, I don’t know.  So many questions were there my mind, is this the life, I want? Is this what enjoyment for me? Felt like sitting at corner and write something. Mobile battery charge was also not there, so opened my small diary sitting at corner place, away from everyone and started writing something.

Don’t know why this happens, if I don’t have anyone with whom I am comfortable with, I don’t speak, I don’t come out of my shell. Always feel like talking to only selected individuals with whom I am comfortable with. Don’t find the self-motivation or purpose just to talk. There are very few people in this world with whom I feel connected, I feel like talking -don’t know why. In the contrary, I have some close friends, who talks to everyone like they are made for each other and known to each other for years.

It’s the beauty of God’s creation, he has created each individual in such a unique way. Though we are all made up of same set of organs and design, we have so much uniqueness in our thinking. Though we spend so much of our time with different individuals, yet retain our own identity. We do carve for certain things and also we do try to improve upon on ourselves at every stage of our life. We follow some people, get inspired and influenced by some people, yet retaining our individuality. God’s creation is magic.
Similarly it had happened during engineering days, when all the friends went for the blockbuster movie- Rangeela. Everyone enjoyed and came back, in contrary I became very emotional by seeing some senti scenes in the movie and went home immediately to see my parents!

Instead of enjoying the expensive UB city provided facilities, getting into shell was not a planned choice. Also couldn’t push myself to enjoy either as well.

Can we be at present always? Do we know what is our inner calling? Do we know  with whom we feel connected? Do we know purpose of life? How do we be self-motivated always? Do we know whether it is right to think so or not?

I know, it is too much to think too much!!

Can this mood be controlled?