s-IND-u: yeS INDIA is proud of U....

I did not move an inch, I was just holding my hands just like how it was when last point was taken. I was looking at God’s photo and praying for every point. “Oh God! Please give strength to her to win the game”. Yes it was for Sindhu, just like me, many of us might have prayed for her. Before this I had never seen Sindhu’s game. When I read about her in the newspaper, respect for her automatically increased multi folded.

Though she lost in the finals, considering the kind of facilities we have in INDIA, she has achieved beyond the expectations. Here attitude in the game was simply marvelous. Fighting spirit of her was amazing. In all the three sets beginning she was behind by 7 to 8 points, but she did come back with Great Spirit. Till last point she never gave up. If I compare both the finalists, Marina was little better in her smashes and that got her gold. Otherwise Sindhu played equally well. There were very few unforced errors. Kind of aggression Sindhu showed, many of us really felt goose bumps.

Commitment from her and her family is fantastic. Her father has taken 8 months leave to support his daughter’s preparation for Olympics! Sindhu has not touched mobile phone for 3 months and has not eaten favorite ice cream and sweet curd for 3 months!! I was speechless, when her coach Gopichand had tears of joy for his student’s accomplishment. He mentioned, since 3 months, I have not given her mobile phone, today I am giving back mobile phone to her. Imagine she is just 21 years and without mobile phone for 3 months!  When we are in a situation where we can’t live without whatsup, gmail, youtube, facebook, twitter etc even for a minute, that’s great sacrifice, considering her age and amount of influence she will have from her friends, family & media. She used to travel 60 KMs daily at 4AM for the practice!!! When we find it so difficult to get up at 6AM and goto office of 10-15KM to reach at 8.30AM to work in AC cabins!

That’s the beauty of passion with great inner and external expectations!! Except that Olympic gold nothing else seem important to her & her family. When we have such goal in mind, whatever problems we face doesn’t seem important. Thank God, she reached final and we got to know about all her sacrifices and efforts. Otherwise media wouldn’t have revealed all these. Always they are behind winning horses only.

Not just media, everyone is like that only. Except friends, most of the people come to you only when YOU ARE A WINNING HORSE!! That’s the greatest truth of life. And also YOU WILL BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE against ALL ODDS only when YOU HAVE CLEAR SET GOAL. Since few days, I have been thinking on one thing, with what sense of feeling I would like to retire at the age of 60!! I am not getting any clarity on what is that I want to be by then. At office work, we keep having clear set goals and we keep achieving in spite of all hurdles, because of external expectations set on us.

What is that you want to be known as at 60?

7 Colorful Years!!!!!!!

This was written in May month during our anniversary on 3rd May. But because of my nature of giving excuses to self, it took this long to complete it by publishing. Yeah may be too many MUST have expectations in life were there (see started giving excuse J ). We always tend to miss our DESIRES, as they become optional. This is one clear example, until and unless what we like to do is becoming MUST TO DO, we don’t do.
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"Ok see you, will come early" said as usual while stepping out from home, saw the flower, which had blossomed for the first time in our plant. Plucked and gave it to my half-shirt (better half) Archana to keep it on God.
She replied "what is this you are giving on this day?"
Till her reply, I didn't realize what I have done. I gave her red flower but it was not rose, it was Hibiscus!  I should have given red rose instead of Hibiscus!!. Hmm….nothing wrong in her expectation.  As it happens to be our wedding anniversary that day-3rd May!

   Yes, it is been 7 years of togetherness. Like how 7 different colors come together to form beautiful rainbow, these 7 years of bonding has brought, has shown all the colors of life. Sometime pleasant color, sometimes unpleasant color has displayed on life's monitor. No matter what, togetherness has made life colorful.
        In marriage, the seven steps process- i.e Saptapadhi,  where we make promises to each to other, were all questioned and challenged to the core in these 7 years.
   These steps were not easy in the journey of life, multiple U-turns used to bring us back, yet bouncing back to move forward. Since the time of marriage, actually life is in fast forward mode only because of better half.
   If I look back, so many good things happened over a period of 7 years, if I tell in software language i.e after upgraded to family version of self!
If I pick top-7 good things:
   Started making some savings.
   Started to dress well.
   Put on weight.
   Fulfilled all wishes of better half (as per my knowledgeJ).
   Blessed with an angel.
   Trying to give best possible education and environment to daughter.
   Visited so many holy places to get rid of past karma!

We always try to seek inspirations from outside, that too from top achievers in the industry. But we forget to see inspiring people around us inside family and friend’s circle. I am just trying to come out of that and observing people around me to learn from them. I have to thank my friends, some of them really made a difference to me as a person without knowing it!  One of my best friends in life is my better half, from whom 7 learnings I can think of from her are:

1.       Discipline:

Whatever she thinks of doing does it, does it in much disciplined way. Nobody can beat her. Once she decides to do anything, consider it as done. That’s it, nobody can stop her from getting it done.

2.       Cleanliness:

If house is not up to the mark and if it is required to be cleaned, which would take whole day. Without any food, she does that non-stop. If it is not clean, she just stops and takes up cleaning on high priority! (Other world stops there for her!)

3.       Smartness:

She is so smart, it is really unbelievable. Before marriage she has never cooked, just being below the cot(always used to sleep and spend time below cot it seems, got to know from her family members), observed all the things how her mother used to do and now she just does the same, in fact better without any difficulty, just like she has been doing since so many years. Un-believable are her observing skill and smartness.

4.       Logical thinking:

If she starts talking on certain things or incidents, she talks like a lawyer with all supportive points, just like law points. You just can’t say NO to her. She doesn’t talk much with every one, if she does, you can’t beat her in talking and you will be convinced with whatever she is telling. May be in last incarnation, she was a lawyer!

5.       Meticulous Planning:

If we have to go anywhere, kind of planning she does while packing things, nothing can be questioned. Not just packing, each and every aspect related to the visit, plans so well, I don’t have to worry on anything. My job is only to take them in car like a driver!

6.       Culture:

Respect she gives to elders is simply amazing, no matter what, whether they are relatives or not. The way she takes care of elders is much appreciated. There are so many instances, friend’s mother or mother in laws have expressed that, “our daughter/daughter in law need to learn from you! Will send them to your house, seeing you they might learn!”

7.       Completeness:

Whichever work she takes up, without completing it, she doesn’t rest. There are so many instances, she had gone extra mile to complete the task she had taken up for herself. Such as doing wall painting with different designs, paintings done in daughter Impana’s room. Setting up kitchen in a day where we had so many things! She has given me surprises multiple times like when I go back home, showing the wall paintings one after the other!

I thank her on this occasion for bringing colorful rainbow in my life. Last but not the least, if she were to work in our industry, definitely she would have been top performer always!

Park IT park!!!

Though it was weekend, got up early as usual. As better half was doing some Pooja, I had to take care of my daughter(otherwise I will have nice Pooja :). So could not go for our cricket practice for the office tournament. As bat was with me, thought will go and give. Went to ground along with my daughter, was happy to see all our colleagues practicing hard. Wanted to play for some time, but daughter didn’t allow. So I thought, atleast let me take her to nearest park, to make her happy. When we reached there, so many people were there with kids.  Surprising fact is all the kids had come with their fathers and all of them looked like IT professionals! Looks like all parks in Bengaluru becomes IT parks because of IT fathers!

Nowadays I am trying to make small changes within myself for better life. When I was with my daughter in the park, multiple times I was tempted to use mobile, but I had taken firm decision to be with her giving my 100%. Thanks to one of my mentors, who had told me once that, whenever he has to spend time with family, he will give 100%, he don’t even carry mobile also. Since then it had stuck in my mind. Nowadays I am trying to implement that.

Each and every thing she was enjoying over there. Always she lives in present. We can learn so much from kids, isn't it? Happiness kids have with small gestures of ours is unmatchable. Felt so happy being there properly giving my 100% of attention. We will not know what we are missing, until we get it. In the same place, I could see some fathers, in the name of freedom had left their kids free and were reading news papers,watching mobile & watching exercises done by other fathers! I could see, some kids had to shout so many times “Daddy…Daddy” to get their attention!

I think for most of IT professionals being restless has become a habit! Myself was a victim of this, because of involvement in too many things, I am not able to sit on one thing for longer duration! My mind was not willing to sit for long to write this blog, I had to force myself so much. Luckily for my help internet connection went off for some time. Because of that, I was able to disconnect a little bit and write this!

In this digital world, we are all connected and distance doesn’t matter even a bit. But we are getting disconnected from self & families. We are so much busy in outside connections that we forget inner connection and intra connections with families.

Disconnect to connect better with self  & families…

Can we park IT for some time in park?

@maR

Can this be controlled?

At the terrace of that beautiful hotel in posh place UB City, all the colleagues were enjoying the party of successful launch of one of our products. It was only me who stood separate without socializing with everyone. To dance on the dance floor, so many people forced and pulled me, but it was of no use. I could not help my body to dance to the tunes, as physically I was there but mentally I was somewhere else. Where which place also, I don’t know.  So many questions were there my mind, is this the life, I want? Is this what enjoyment for me? Felt like sitting at corner and write something. Mobile battery charge was also not there, so opened my small diary sitting at corner place, away from everyone and started writing something.

Don’t know why this happens, if I don’t have anyone with whom I am comfortable with, I don’t speak, I don’t come out of my shell. Always feel like talking to only selected individuals with whom I am comfortable with. Don’t find the self-motivation or purpose just to talk. There are very few people in this world with whom I feel connected, I feel like talking -don’t know why. In the contrary, I have some close friends, who talks to everyone like they are made for each other and known to each other for years.

It’s the beauty of God’s creation, he has created each individual in such a unique way. Though we are all made up of same set of organs and design, we have so much uniqueness in our thinking. Though we spend so much of our time with different individuals, yet retain our own identity. We do carve for certain things and also we do try to improve upon on ourselves at every stage of our life. We follow some people, get inspired and influenced by some people, yet retaining our individuality. God’s creation is magic.

Similarly it had happened during engineering days, when all the friends went for the blockbuster movie- Rangeela. Everyone enjoyed and came back, in contrary I became very emotional by seeing some senti scenes in the movie and went home immediately to see my parents!

Instead of enjoying the expensive UB city provided facilities, getting into shell was not a planned choice. Also couldn’t push myself to enjoy either as well.

Can we be at present always? Do we know what is our inner calling? Do we know  with whom we feel connected? Do we know purpose of life? How do we be self-motivated always? Do we know whether it is right to think so or not?

I know, it is too much to think too much!!

Can this mood be controlled?

Co(a)n fusion!!??

One true thing about most of us is we are all confused in life. Most of us would not know where are we heading towards in life, what is that we would want to achieve in life. I am also one of those victim, who is thoroughly confused, not knowing clearly, what is that I want to do in life!

Nowadays life is full of multiple options! and also it is fast zamana. May be because of that, I don’t know. But really our mind is like monkey only. What do we think of becoming one moment, would change to something else in next moment. Same is the case with me as well. One day, I would think of becoming lyricists/writer, so all my energy should go into that. For some days, would give time on the same. Will keep writing songs and articles. Would read lot of books on Kannada literature to improve my language. Would attend weekend book releases, would read articles on improving writing. Would work towards publication of my next book. Would be dreaming of next book release for some days.  Also would be dreaming of music album release with all my songs in it.

Then suddenly one day, if someone becomes sick, would be triggered to become healer. I have learnt so many healing techniques, why am I not utilizing those? I should be of some help to society. It will be of great satisfaction, I should do. For some days, I would be working towards that, will attend some workshops or watch related videos and read related stuffs. Would be using different healing techniques to heal family members, friends and myself. Then suddenly, some day some article related to human mind power would trigger me, oh! I have to do R&D on psychic power, this is my favorite subject. I have to show to the world that, we have so much of psychic power in us, with proper techniques and practice anybody can utilize psychic power and make their life beautiful. During that time, would be trying to enhance my abilities towards that, would watch lot of videos and would read a lot on that subject. Would be on different cloud altogether. Would be observing people a lot to understand what might be going on in their mind, how are their thoughts, how it might be affecting themselves and others. How are my thoughts, how am I creating, how am I affecting others. Will be more intuitive for some days, will be creating whatever I want in life through the power of law of attraction.

Then after some days, may be because of some incident, would think of achieving in software industry itself. No its not fair, I have been in this industry for more than a decade, I should goto next level, I have to focus on improving myself as a software professional, I have to enhance my skills. All these days, I have not put proper efforts to improve myself professionally, this is the high time, I should do. Comparing myself with others, I would spend some sleepless nights. Would spend time working towards improving myself. Then when I am getting hold of something, then suddenly,  some problems for which there are no solutions in personal life would through the challenge at me, bringing me down to the deepest possible way. Some days would go in recovery mode, where mix of all above desires in life would keep me going on in life. After some days would be happy that, now I can focus on one thing, this time will plan this and execute. The day I decide on something like that, there starts the crisis at office!! Forget about desires of life, I would not be able to think anything about myself and family! Would get into a kind of situation, we would not be knowing that, we are breathing!

Not sure when will I come out of trap of confused state!!